Saying Goodbye

This past October I had to say goodbye to my nana. 67 years old and she was the most amazing woman I had ever met. She had been battling kidney disease for a few years. She was on dialysis for a while, but her body just couldn’t take it anymore. She was in and out of the hospital a lot and I knew that her time was coming to an end.

Losing my nana has been one of the most painful experiences of my life. She was not only a grandmother to me, but also a best friend, confidante, and role model. Her passing has left a gaping hole in my heart that will never fully heal. My Nana was an incredible woman who lived her life with so much love, kindness, and strength. She always put others before herself and had a compassionate heart. Growing up, I spent every weekend at her house where we would bake cookies together, watch movies, or just sit outside in the garden talking for hours on end. As I got older, our relationship grew even stronger as she became someone I could turn to for advice and guidance during difficult times. She never judged me or criticized me, but rather listened patiently and offered wise words that always seemed to make everything feel better. 

The grief that followed her passing felt like an endless abyss of pain. It consumed me completely – physically, emotionally, and mentally. I couldn’t believe that someone so full of life could be gone just like that. Every day since then has been a struggle as I try to come to terms with the fact that she is no longer here with us in person. The thought of never being able to see her smile again or hear her voice telling me how proud she is of me brings tears to my eyes every time. But through this immense grief comes moments of solace when I think about all the memories we shared together. From silly inside jokes between us to heartfelt conversations about life; those are the things I hold onto tightly now whenever I miss her dearly. I know deep down that my nana wouldn’t want me dwelling on sadness forever because she always wanted to see me happy and thriving. So, I try my best to honor her memory by living my life with the same love, kindness, and strength that she exemplified. Although her physical presence may be gone, her spirit will always live on in my heart. And for that, I am grateful. Rest in peace Nana – you will forever be missed and loved beyond measure.